One of the reasons that recovery is hard.
Jan. 16th, 2013 05:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
randomlingDoing too little is bad for me for a number of reasons, especially to do with my mood and energy levels.
Doing too much exhausts me, not only for the rest of that day but for some days afterwards (thank you, insomnia and non-restorative sleep).
Figuring out what lives in the gap between "too little" and "too much" is incredibly hard.
And there are complicating factors like - I currently have the suspicion that my mood would like more social interaction than my current energy levels will allow. The current situation is that I end up with almost no social life at all, and none that doesn't involve my parents. (I miss having a social life.)
Starting Just One Thing seems like a reasonable solution, but making a decision is hard, especially when there is so much I want to be getting myself to do daily. (Some candidates include playing the piano, writing, programming, exercising, and finding a choir.)
So today was... possibly Enough verging on Too Much? I'm not sure - it depends on how I sleep tonight, I think. I was up late yesterday talking computer science with a friend (kind of a calculated staying-up because I wanted to have that talk), and apparently the later I go to bed, the poorer quality my sleep. (Actually that's really only on evidence of the one night: I've been having decent-ish sleep quality recently since starting to go to bed at 10pm to 11pm, but still waking up tired. I feel like my sleep quality was slightly worse last night than it has been, and I still woke up tired, though I'm not sure I woke up MORE tired than usual.)
Anyway, we went to the shops for about 2 hours this morning/early afternoon. There was a fair bit of walking around involved and my energy level seemed to crash quite dramatically towards the end of the outing - my back and feet started to hurt, and I felt exhausted and had to sit down. When we got in, I immediately made myself a lunch, watched an episode of TV with my lunch (this is a habit I have) and then took a nap. I woke up about 2.5 hours later.
I've been trying to avoid afternoon naps since I started going to bed earlier, and I have a feeling that it's been helping, so I'll be keeping an eye on whether taking the nap makes it harder to sleep tonight. I napped yesterday, too, after getting in from a 3-hour outing to see my therapist, but only for an hour that time.
(As usual, no advice, please.)
Doing too much exhausts me, not only for the rest of that day but for some days afterwards (thank you, insomnia and non-restorative sleep).
Figuring out what lives in the gap between "too little" and "too much" is incredibly hard.
And there are complicating factors like - I currently have the suspicion that my mood would like more social interaction than my current energy levels will allow. The current situation is that I end up with almost no social life at all, and none that doesn't involve my parents. (I miss having a social life.)
Starting Just One Thing seems like a reasonable solution, but making a decision is hard, especially when there is so much I want to be getting myself to do daily. (Some candidates include playing the piano, writing, programming, exercising, and finding a choir.)
So today was... possibly Enough verging on Too Much? I'm not sure - it depends on how I sleep tonight, I think. I was up late yesterday talking computer science with a friend (kind of a calculated staying-up because I wanted to have that talk), and apparently the later I go to bed, the poorer quality my sleep. (Actually that's really only on evidence of the one night: I've been having decent-ish sleep quality recently since starting to go to bed at 10pm to 11pm, but still waking up tired. I feel like my sleep quality was slightly worse last night than it has been, and I still woke up tired, though I'm not sure I woke up MORE tired than usual.)
Anyway, we went to the shops for about 2 hours this morning/early afternoon. There was a fair bit of walking around involved and my energy level seemed to crash quite dramatically towards the end of the outing - my back and feet started to hurt, and I felt exhausted and had to sit down. When we got in, I immediately made myself a lunch, watched an episode of TV with my lunch (this is a habit I have) and then took a nap. I woke up about 2.5 hours later.
I've been trying to avoid afternoon naps since I started going to bed earlier, and I have a feeling that it's been helping, so I'll be keeping an eye on whether taking the nap makes it harder to sleep tonight. I napped yesterday, too, after getting in from a 3-hour outing to see my therapist, but only for an hour that time.
(As usual, no advice, please.)
