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Jul. 7th, 2014 03:14 pm( aaaaaaaaaaah )
Hard hard hard.
Oct. 26th, 2010 01:40 pmThings are still hard. But I'll get my pills this afternoon, and this morning's doctor's appointment was a definite success. Got the admin stuff I needed done, and two balls rolling that needed to be got rolling, and I was taken seriously and everything. I think there might be an adult in here somewhere.
But I'm aware that this is a temporary thing. I'm able to take care of myself during the temporary hard time. And I'm able to put things in place that will help me not to be in this situation again. All of this is good news.
In the meantime, I'm watching lots of Warehouse 13 and getting some knitting done. (I have new yarn!) And I need to photograph my stash, so that my sister can pick colours for her birthday hat.
Might work on that now, actually. I need to know what she wants before I go away in a week. Um, apparently knitting is my new obsession.
Going to see what I can do about the self-care now. Yay, self-care.
But I'm aware that this is a temporary thing. I'm able to take care of myself during the temporary hard time. And I'm able to put things in place that will help me not to be in this situation again. All of this is good news.
In the meantime, I'm watching lots of Warehouse 13 and getting some knitting done. (I have new yarn!) And I need to photograph my stash, so that my sister can pick colours for her birthday hat.
Might work on that now, actually. I need to know what she wants before I go away in a week. Um, apparently knitting is my new obsession.
Going to see what I can do about the self-care now. Yay, self-care.
An update? An update.
Sep. 7th, 2010 05:37 pmHello, lovely DW-and-LJ people!
I keep meaning to update and not doing it. Just like I keep meaning to do LOADS of stuff and not doing it.
So here's a basic rundown of what's going on in my life at the moment:
-Money's a huge issue. Ugh. Not wanting to think about it. (But I am thinking about it. Slowly.)
-I have fandoms again! Doctor Who (always! but Matt Smith captured my heart), Sherlock (which ate my brain), and Inception (which has actually, surprisingly, got me writing again). Popslash didn't go anywhere but my muses have abandoned me.
-I'm trying to get myself to play the piano. Harder than it looks! But I'm enjoying it.
-I'm having an actual social life! Seeing movies once a week with my lovely![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
seiyaharris. It's a bit awesome to actually leave the house.
-I'm still depressed and exhausted all the time and it's driving me batty.
-I am however working on getting therapy from the WPF.
-I'm sorting out my belongings, finally. Not easy, but I'm getting support from my dad, and we're doing an exchange of labour (I'm helping him sort out his belongings, too).
-Oh, and I might go to a stitch and bitch at the beginning of October. More socializing, yay!
I think that's all for now.
Hello to New People on both LJ and DW, by the way. (Maybe I should do a "hello there this is me" post.)
I keep meaning to update and not doing it. Just like I keep meaning to do LOADS of stuff and not doing it.
So here's a basic rundown of what's going on in my life at the moment:
-Money's a huge issue. Ugh. Not wanting to think about it. (But I am thinking about it. Slowly.)
-I have fandoms again! Doctor Who (always! but Matt Smith captured my heart), Sherlock (which ate my brain), and Inception (which has actually, surprisingly, got me writing again). Popslash didn't go anywhere but my muses have abandoned me.
-I'm trying to get myself to play the piano. Harder than it looks! But I'm enjoying it.
-I'm having an actual social life! Seeing movies once a week with my lovely
seiyaharris. It's a bit awesome to actually leave the house.-I'm still depressed and exhausted all the time and it's driving me batty.
-I am however working on getting therapy from the WPF.
-I'm sorting out my belongings, finally. Not easy, but I'm getting support from my dad, and we're doing an exchange of labour (I'm helping him sort out his belongings, too).
-Oh, and I might go to a stitch and bitch at the beginning of October. More socializing, yay!
I think that's all for now.
Hello to New People on both LJ and DW, by the way. (Maybe I should do a "hello there this is me" post.)
An update? An update.
Sep. 7th, 2010 05:37 pmHello, lovely DW-and-LJ people!
I keep meaning to update and not doing it. Just like I keep meaning to do LOADS of stuff and not doing it.
So here's a basic rundown of what's going on in my life at the moment:
-Money's a huge issue. Ugh. Not wanting to think about it. (But I am thinking about it. Slowly.)
-I have fandoms again! Doctor Who (always! but Matt Smith captured my heart), Sherlock (which ate my brain), and Inception (which has actually, surprisingly, got me writing again). Popslash didn't go anywhere but my muses have abandoned me.
-I'm trying to get myself to play the piano. Harder than it looks! But I'm enjoying it.
-I'm having an actual social life! Seeing movies once a week with my lovelyseiyaharris. It's a bit awesome to actually leave the house.
-I'm still depressed and exhausted all the time and it's driving me batty.
-I am however working on getting therapy from the WPF.
-I'm sorting out my belongings, finally. Not easy, but I'm getting support from my dad, and we're doing an exchange of labour (I'm helping him sort out his belongings, too).
-Oh, and I might go to a stitch and bitch at the beginning of October. More socializing, yay!
I think that's all for now.
Hello to New People on both LJ and DW, by the way. (Maybe I should do a "hello there this is me" post.)
I keep meaning to update and not doing it. Just like I keep meaning to do LOADS of stuff and not doing it.
So here's a basic rundown of what's going on in my life at the moment:
-Money's a huge issue. Ugh. Not wanting to think about it. (But I am thinking about it. Slowly.)
-I have fandoms again! Doctor Who (always! but Matt Smith captured my heart), Sherlock (which ate my brain), and Inception (which has actually, surprisingly, got me writing again). Popslash didn't go anywhere but my muses have abandoned me.
-I'm trying to get myself to play the piano. Harder than it looks! But I'm enjoying it.
-I'm having an actual social life! Seeing movies once a week with my lovely
seiyaharris. It's a bit awesome to actually leave the house.-I'm still depressed and exhausted all the time and it's driving me batty.
-I am however working on getting therapy from the WPF.
-I'm sorting out my belongings, finally. Not easy, but I'm getting support from my dad, and we're doing an exchange of labour (I'm helping him sort out his belongings, too).
-Oh, and I might go to a stitch and bitch at the beginning of October. More socializing, yay!
I think that's all for now.
Hello to New People on both LJ and DW, by the way. (Maybe I should do a "hello there this is me" post.)
A quickie what-is-up-with-me post.
May. 6th, 2010 07:40 pmFirst: I want to say thank you to everyone who commented on my request-for-advice-about-stinky-clothing post. You all are awesome.
Second: I am in the middle of packing for Camp Sparkle, which BEGINS TOMORROW. (I've also been baking biscuits in large amounts, to have some to take to CS and some to leave with my family. Cook's taste-test says they are quite yummy.)
Third: I'm moved! The unpacking and finding-space-for-everything is proving kind of hard and stressful, and I'm quite glad that I'm getting a break from it for a week.
Fourth: Because I'm a nutjob, I'm going to Portland (Oregon) at the beginning of June. I don't have the money, at all. But it's another Havi-related thing - I'm doing a program of hers - and I'm hoping that it will help me get further with this build-a-life-I-can-live thing.
Fifth: Not sure there is a fifth. Oh, yeah: if you live in Portland, and you're around that weekend, wanna hang out? (Not sure there are any flisters/rlisters in Portland but it can't hurt to ask.)
Sixth: I'm going to have dinner soon. Yum, dinner!
Seventh: If you are going to Camp Sparkle, I will see you tomorrow!
Second: I am in the middle of packing for Camp Sparkle, which BEGINS TOMORROW. (I've also been baking biscuits in large amounts, to have some to take to CS and some to leave with my family. Cook's taste-test says they are quite yummy.)
Third: I'm moved! The unpacking and finding-space-for-everything is proving kind of hard and stressful, and I'm quite glad that I'm getting a break from it for a week.
Fourth: Because I'm a nutjob, I'm going to Portland (Oregon) at the beginning of June. I don't have the money, at all. But it's another Havi-related thing - I'm doing a program of hers - and I'm hoping that it will help me get further with this build-a-life-I-can-live thing.
Fifth: Not sure there is a fifth. Oh, yeah: if you live in Portland, and you're around that weekend, wanna hang out? (Not sure there are any flisters/rlisters in Portland but it can't hurt to ask.)
Sixth: I'm going to have dinner soon. Yum, dinner!
Seventh: If you are going to Camp Sparkle, I will see you tomorrow!
A quickie what-is-up-with-me post.
May. 6th, 2010 07:40 pmFirst: I want to say thank you to everyone who commented on my request-for-advice-about-stinky-clothing post. You all are awesome.
Second: I am in the middle of packing for Camp Sparkle, which BEGINS TOMORROW. (I've also been baking biscuits in large amounts, to have some to take to CS and some to leave with my family. Cook's taste-test says they are quite yummy.)
Third: I'm moved! The unpacking and finding-space-for-everything is proving kind of hard and stressful, and I'm quite glad that I'm getting a break from it for a week.
Fourth: Because I'm a nutjob, I'm going to Portland (Oregon) at the beginning of June. I don't have the money, at all. But it's another Havi-related thing - I'm doing a program of hers - and I'm hoping that it will help me get further with this build-a-life-I-can-live thing.
Fifth: Not sure there is a fifth. Oh, yeah: if you live in Portland, and you're around that weekend, wanna hang out? (Not sure there are any flisters/rlisters in Portland but it can't hurt to ask.)
Sixth: I'm going to have dinner soon. Yum, dinner!
Seventh: If you are going to Camp Sparkle, I will see you tomorrow!
Second: I am in the middle of packing for Camp Sparkle, which BEGINS TOMORROW. (I've also been baking biscuits in large amounts, to have some to take to CS and some to leave with my family. Cook's taste-test says they are quite yummy.)
Third: I'm moved! The unpacking and finding-space-for-everything is proving kind of hard and stressful, and I'm quite glad that I'm getting a break from it for a week.
Fourth: Because I'm a nutjob, I'm going to Portland (Oregon) at the beginning of June. I don't have the money, at all. But it's another Havi-related thing - I'm doing a program of hers - and I'm hoping that it will help me get further with this build-a-life-I-can-live thing.
Fifth: Not sure there is a fifth. Oh, yeah: if you live in Portland, and you're around that weekend, wanna hang out? (Not sure there are any flisters/rlisters in Portland but it can't hurt to ask.)
Sixth: I'm going to have dinner soon. Yum, dinner!
Seventh: If you are going to Camp Sparkle, I will see you tomorrow!
(no subject)
Dec. 17th, 2009 06:43 amWell.
I have an awesome thing that I can't talk about.
It's seriously expensive. It means three trips to America over the next 12 months. And it's totally going to be *worth every penny*.
I got the news about it this morning and I am feeling surprisingly calm. Despite not having a clue how I'm going to pay for it.
In other news - work overpaid me the last two months and now I owe them over £1200. (I didn't notice, because they were supposed to put me down to sick pay and they didn't. And I didn't realize that they were going to do that because they didn't like, tell me or anything.)
I'm still sick.
However things do seem to be shifting for me. And I'm working on (possibly) other ways to make money while still being too sick to do my job, and without pushing myself so hard that I get even sicker. Preferably, without pushing myself at all.
We'll see about that, I guess. My schedule is still featuring "rest and play" pretty damn heavily because that's about all I seem to be capable of.
So um, yeah. Things right now? Are kind of weird. But possibly getting a bit better.
Oh, and in fandom news, I have a Christmas story due on Sunday and I haven't started it. Blargh.
ETA: With regard to the story? I could totally use someone to hold my hand and help me talk through ideas, via Twitter, email, IM, DW/LJ comments, or whatever else might work for you.
This is me, asking for help and support.
I have an awesome thing that I can't talk about.
It's seriously expensive. It means three trips to America over the next 12 months. And it's totally going to be *worth every penny*.
I got the news about it this morning and I am feeling surprisingly calm. Despite not having a clue how I'm going to pay for it.
In other news - work overpaid me the last two months and now I owe them over £1200. (I didn't notice, because they were supposed to put me down to sick pay and they didn't. And I didn't realize that they were going to do that because they didn't like, tell me or anything.)
I'm still sick.
However things do seem to be shifting for me. And I'm working on (possibly) other ways to make money while still being too sick to do my job, and without pushing myself so hard that I get even sicker. Preferably, without pushing myself at all.
We'll see about that, I guess. My schedule is still featuring "rest and play" pretty damn heavily because that's about all I seem to be capable of.
So um, yeah. Things right now? Are kind of weird. But possibly getting a bit better.
Oh, and in fandom news, I have a Christmas story due on Sunday and I haven't started it. Blargh.
ETA: With regard to the story? I could totally use someone to hold my hand and help me talk through ideas, via Twitter, email, IM, DW/LJ comments, or whatever else might work for you.
This is me, asking for help and support.
(no subject)
Dec. 17th, 2009 06:43 amWell.
I have an awesome thing that I can't talk about.
It's seriously expensive. It means three trips to America over the next 12 months. And it's totally going to be *worth every penny*.
I got the news about it this morning and I am feeling surprisingly calm. Despite not having a clue how I'm going to pay for it.
In other news - work overpaid me the last two months and now I owe them over £1200. (I didn't notice, because they were supposed to put me down to sick pay and they didn't. And I didn't realize that they were going to do that because they didn't like, tell me or anything.)
I'm still sick.
However things do seem to be shifting for me. And I'm working on (possibly) other ways to make money while still being too sick to do my job, and without pushing myself so hard that I get even sicker. Preferably, without pushing myself at all.
We'll see about that, I guess. My schedule is still featuring "rest and play" pretty damn heavily because that's about all I seem to be capable of.
So um, yeah. Things right now? Are kind of weird. But possibly getting a bit better.
Oh, and in fandom news, I have a Christmas story due on Sunday and I haven't started it. Blargh.
ETA: With regard to the story? I could totally use someone to hold my hand and help me talk through ideas, via Twitter, email, IM, DW/LJ comments, or whatever else might work for you.
This is me, asking for help and support.
I have an awesome thing that I can't talk about.
It's seriously expensive. It means three trips to America over the next 12 months. And it's totally going to be *worth every penny*.
I got the news about it this morning and I am feeling surprisingly calm. Despite not having a clue how I'm going to pay for it.
In other news - work overpaid me the last two months and now I owe them over £1200. (I didn't notice, because they were supposed to put me down to sick pay and they didn't. And I didn't realize that they were going to do that because they didn't like, tell me or anything.)
I'm still sick.
However things do seem to be shifting for me. And I'm working on (possibly) other ways to make money while still being too sick to do my job, and without pushing myself so hard that I get even sicker. Preferably, without pushing myself at all.
We'll see about that, I guess. My schedule is still featuring "rest and play" pretty damn heavily because that's about all I seem to be capable of.
So um, yeah. Things right now? Are kind of weird. But possibly getting a bit better.
Oh, and in fandom news, I have a Christmas story due on Sunday and I haven't started it. Blargh.
ETA: With regard to the story? I could totally use someone to hold my hand and help me talk through ideas, via Twitter, email, IM, DW/LJ comments, or whatever else might work for you.
This is me, asking for help and support.
