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jjhunter is doing a words and deeds love meme.My thread is here.
Am going to try to get to some more of the December (ha) posts at some point, I swear.
jjhunter is doing a words and deeds love meme.My thread is here.
Am going to try to get to some more of the December (ha) posts at some point, I swear.
Well, I appear to be alive.
Jan. 28th, 2013 06:20 pmI'm having a hard time mentally/emotionally right now, but I have survived it so far.
On the other hand, I managed to rearrange a benefit-related appointment for a time that suits me better.
Over the past few weeks I have also dyed my hair purple, read two new books (Gone Girl and Seraphina - both very good in their respective ways, though I had some issues with Gone Girl), and received a tax rebate for the past year. I'm going to spend some of the rebate on fun stuff (books, a few months of Lovefilm in advance) and use the rest to make another sizeable hole in my debt.
I've taken up the piano again, though I'm finding it really hard to stick with anything right now - be that piano or exercise. I'm hoping to be referred to a psychologist at some point, which might be helpful, but I'm also hoping that someone will listen to me about the fact that my current anti-depressants just don't seem to be un-depressing me enough.
One thing I have been sticking with, at least for the past few days, is studying some maths on Khan Academy. There's an algorithms course on Udacity that I want to take, but it requires knowledge of some mathematical notation that I'm not familiar with. I'm currently working my way through some basic arithmetic stuff (working on fractions right now) to prepare me for the Khan Academy algebra material. Once I've worked my way through that, I think I'll probably be ready for Algorithms.
In other news, the lovelydingsi is holding a love meme. My thread is here.
On the other hand, I managed to rearrange a benefit-related appointment for a time that suits me better.
Over the past few weeks I have also dyed my hair purple, read two new books (Gone Girl and Seraphina - both very good in their respective ways, though I had some issues with Gone Girl), and received a tax rebate for the past year. I'm going to spend some of the rebate on fun stuff (books, a few months of Lovefilm in advance) and use the rest to make another sizeable hole in my debt.
I've taken up the piano again, though I'm finding it really hard to stick with anything right now - be that piano or exercise. I'm hoping to be referred to a psychologist at some point, which might be helpful, but I'm also hoping that someone will listen to me about the fact that my current anti-depressants just don't seem to be un-depressing me enough.
One thing I have been sticking with, at least for the past few days, is studying some maths on Khan Academy. There's an algorithms course on Udacity that I want to take, but it requires knowledge of some mathematical notation that I'm not familiar with. I'm currently working my way through some basic arithmetic stuff (working on fractions right now) to prepare me for the Khan Academy algebra material. Once I've worked my way through that, I think I'll probably be ready for Algorithms.
In other news, the lovely
dingsi is holding a love meme. My thread is here.Good morning, good morning
Dec. 22nd, 2010 11:34 amLast day of volunteer work before Christmas. Tomorrow is shopping, Friday is Christmas Eve support group, and Saturday is, well. The Day.
I am stressed about all the stuff that needs to get done before the end of the year, and frustrated to be at work where I can't work on any of it. Especially since right now, there's nothing for me to do here.
So here I am on the internet, making a DW/LJ post and feeling lonesome once again.
I feel like between Christmas and the New Year, I want to do a year review and make some plans for 2011. But I'm not sure what I want out of the review exactly. Before I figure out how to review my year, I guess I need to figure out what information I want out of it.
I already have some keywords I'm working on, which is good. A blogger friend of mine had an interesting framework which I might see if I can adapt to suit me.
I would like to get out of here on time today. Pretty interesting to notice that, even not being paid, I am not ruthless about leaving times. Partly because I feel guitly about showing up a little bit late most days (mornings, they are hard; I'm trying to figure out what's happening there). Partly because I don't want to leave my boss in the lurch. Partly, I think, 'cause I have trouble with detachment and boundaries. This tends to end up with me staying until 2.30 or even 3.30 when my official leaving time is 1.30.
I'd like to be more careful about keeping the commitment to myself to only do a certain amount of time at this job, because overstaying is really not doing my energy or enthusiasm levels any favours.
(All of this is useful information.)
Today is a tired day. I will do lots of sleeping this afternoon.
I think that's all for now.
I am stressed about all the stuff that needs to get done before the end of the year, and frustrated to be at work where I can't work on any of it. Especially since right now, there's nothing for me to do here.
So here I am on the internet, making a DW/LJ post and feeling lonesome once again.
I feel like between Christmas and the New Year, I want to do a year review and make some plans for 2011. But I'm not sure what I want out of the review exactly. Before I figure out how to review my year, I guess I need to figure out what information I want out of it.
I already have some keywords I'm working on, which is good. A blogger friend of mine had an interesting framework which I might see if I can adapt to suit me.
I would like to get out of here on time today. Pretty interesting to notice that, even not being paid, I am not ruthless about leaving times. Partly because I feel guitly about showing up a little bit late most days (mornings, they are hard; I'm trying to figure out what's happening there). Partly because I don't want to leave my boss in the lurch. Partly, I think, 'cause I have trouble with detachment and boundaries. This tends to end up with me staying until 2.30 or even 3.30 when my official leaving time is 1.30.
I'd like to be more careful about keeping the commitment to myself to only do a certain amount of time at this job, because overstaying is really not doing my energy or enthusiasm levels any favours.
(All of this is useful information.)
Today is a tired day. I will do lots of sleeping this afternoon.
I think that's all for now.
Today I am queen of spam.
Dec. 21st, 2010 12:20 pmSo hey, folks. While waiting for the next installment of the ecard saga, or possibly the prospectus saga, I am going to write an update.
Finally finished my SeSa last night. And submitted before the deadline. I have promised myself that next year I will check in with myself carefully before signing up. I'll be honest, my heart was not in it this year.
Maybe Yuletide next year, instead.
Feeling a bit panicky about getting everything done for Christmas. Ah, it's hard when you don't have much money or energy. Not a good combination.
Looking forward to it being 2011, though. This has been a hard year, though also with lots of good in it; I feel I'm at last starting to get back on my feet, and I'm feeling a little bit more hopeful than I was even a month ago.
Right now this second, I'm feeling a bit sad and friendless, and wanting to make a post every five minutes, leave comments everywhere, and generally try to get people to talk to me. I'm trying to keep from spamming people's journals too much, 'cause I don't want to be an irritation. On the other hand, I would like to show my face.
The world is full of scary.
I've got stuff coming up that I need to get done, that should be all taken care of by the end of the year. After that, I feel like I can start making plans and deciding what I want to do: the decks will be cleared. (Yes, I'm being deliberately cryptic there. I want to announce the thing when it's done, I guess.)
There's quite a lot of writing I want to get done next year, too. I'm working on allowing myself to stay with the fanfic for a while, and trusting that original stuff will somehow come in time.
That is it for now - looks like I will shortly have stuff to do. Hurray!
Finally finished my SeSa last night. And submitted before the deadline. I have promised myself that next year I will check in with myself carefully before signing up. I'll be honest, my heart was not in it this year.
Maybe Yuletide next year, instead.
Feeling a bit panicky about getting everything done for Christmas. Ah, it's hard when you don't have much money or energy. Not a good combination.
Looking forward to it being 2011, though. This has been a hard year, though also with lots of good in it; I feel I'm at last starting to get back on my feet, and I'm feeling a little bit more hopeful than I was even a month ago.
Right now this second, I'm feeling a bit sad and friendless, and wanting to make a post every five minutes, leave comments everywhere, and generally try to get people to talk to me. I'm trying to keep from spamming people's journals too much, 'cause I don't want to be an irritation. On the other hand, I would like to show my face.
The world is full of scary.
I've got stuff coming up that I need to get done, that should be all taken care of by the end of the year. After that, I feel like I can start making plans and deciding what I want to do: the decks will be cleared. (Yes, I'm being deliberately cryptic there. I want to announce the thing when it's done, I guess.)
There's quite a lot of writing I want to get done next year, too. I'm working on allowing myself to stay with the fanfic for a while, and trusting that original stuff will somehow come in time.
That is it for now - looks like I will shortly have stuff to do. Hurray!
