Things!

[randomling]

First: I haz a kaberett! I may never let them go.


Have been observing how quickly and easily I have sunk back into cripplingly-depressed mode over the past few days, since I've been back in the UK. Which is frustrating, because at some point I have to start claiming Jobseeker's Allowance and finding the energy and motivation to put serious time into looking for work.

Part of it is being back living in my parents' house, which is for various reasons a self-esteem suck. Part of it is that I am generally speaking socially isolated, in terms of actual in-person interaction, and I wish I had more local friends, or the energy to do the terrifying "go hang out with groups of strangers" thing.

I would go and see the doctor - I should anyway, for other reasons - but I'm not sure this is something that more medication can help. Ugh.

On the other hand, Austin was genuinely awesome, and I wrote code and fixed things and even jumped on a code push and fixed a bug which was cool. And I'm trying to turn some of that awesomeness into actual energy. I really am.

Inertia: it's evil.

Comments

[ghoti]

<3

[jjhunter]

\o/ re: awesome adventures in Austin; re: feeling a post-con slump...that sounds pretty normal? I mean, the factors you're describing sound like they'd make it more extreme (and I really hope depression-stuff doesn't keep you stuck there), but you're not alone in hitting a significant low after such a high.

[pretty_panther]

I think a slump is normal after such a high as others have said but still, a doctor might be able to suggest things over than meds to help you out if you wanted. I hope things get better, whatever you choose to do. :3