My mood is fluctuating like mad.

[randomling]

Sometimes I feel okay, and sometimes I feel like I've been dragged through the muck, sideways, and had all my bones broken in the process.

I'm tired a lot of the time. Very, very tired. And that's getting very annoying.

I'm feeling extra-prone to self-hatred and even suicidal thoughts lately, which is pretty unpleasant.

Simple things are often really quite difficult. A lot of things that most people seem to take for granted are major victories for me.

I don't know how to get out of this pit I'm in, but I have tools, and I'm working on it.

I know you guys care a lot about me and want to help (and thank you for that, really) - but I'm not looking for advice here, and I will ask if I need it.

I just want a place to talk about this without being judged and without any "have you tried...?"; I have a complicated relationship with advice and I don't really want to add any more monsters to the pile right now.

Maybe I should make a filter. See, I can't even make a simple and mostly-inconsequential decision like that.

Um. The end.

Comments

[ghoti]

<3

[kaberett]

*headbutt*

[echan]

*hugs*

No advice, just, this sounded familiar to me.

[shadowspar]

*sends hugs*

[pensnest]

*hugs*

[hatman]

You have my sympathies. I've spent a lot of time in a very similar place. If you decide to go with a filter and if you're considering letting me in (even though we don't know each other that well), I'd opt in. For whatever it's worth, you have my support and interest.

[senmut]

Here. Listening. Caring.

[ilyena_sylph]

Oh, fucking depression, how I hate thee and all thy works.

*offers a shoulder if you want it*

[exor674]

Saying this here too:

Just so you know, I loev you!

*curls up on you in kitty!dre form*