I really, really want something to do.

[randomling]

I'm in "so bored at work" land right now.

There are papers and emails I could be sorting through, but I have no idea what to do with them, and I'm not sure I dare ask (for fear of being told to leave them alone).

I wish I didn't feel quite so LOST in this job. I guess I'll get to a point of feeling more accustomed to what's going on and how everything works here, but for now, this is sort of hard.

I have a "review" today apparently. And I'm scared because I'm worried I'm doing everything wrong but I've had so little training, I don't know how I'm supposed to do it right. I feel like I'm supposed to know everything by instinct (when I don't know something, my boss seems to get kind of annoyed). And I'm not psychic. And it's frustrating.

The other frustrating thing is, I know I could be GOOD at this job if only I knew what the systems are. But I don't. And it seems like no one will tell me!

(And there's probably lots of stuff I could usefully be doing, if only I knew stuff. But I kind of don't dare ask. So here I am on the internet and wishing that I wasn't giving my time for free to just be a warm body and answer the phone every 10 minutes. I can be more useful than this, and I want to be! Argh!)

So, that's today's whine.

If anyone wants to trade comments with me this morning, I would really, REALLY appreciate it.