My mood is fluctuating like mad.

Sometimes I feel okay, and sometimes I feel like I've been dragged through the muck, sideways, and had all my bones broken in the process.

I'm tired a lot of the time. Very, very tired. And that's getting very annoying.

I'm feeling extra-prone to self-hatred and even suicidal thoughts lately, which is pretty unpleasant.

Simple things are often really quite difficult. A lot of things that most people seem to take for granted are major victories for me.

I don't know how to get out of this pit I'm in, but I have tools, and I'm working on it.

I know you guys care a lot about me and want to help (and thank you for that, really) - but I'm not looking for advice here, and I will ask if I need it.

I just want a place to talk about this without being judged and without any "have you tried...?"; I have a complicated relationship with advice and I don't really want to add any more monsters to the pile right now.

Maybe I should make a filter. See, I can't even make a simple and mostly-inconsequential decision like that.

Um. The end.