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I'm seesawing today. There were almost tears earlier, and then I wrote a rather long post on my writing blog and felt somewhat better, and now I'm feeling tearful again. Not even sure what's really wrong, except for the usual random floating-around-my-head stuff. Waiting for a couple of responses on stuff, which makes me feel nervous and upset. And - yes. I'm kind of feeling exhausted (didn't sleep well last night) and sad and very lonely (and also hermit-ish; I feel lonely, but don't want to go and hang out with my housemate and her boyfriend, go figure).

I think I am going to go to bed shortly.

It's weird 'cause I don't want to make Dreamwidth a place of whining, but sometimes I just kind of... need to whine. (Livejournal has always kind of been a whiny place for me!) I guess I need my Havi-sponsored six steps:

1. Acknowledge.
Okay. I feel lonely and sad. Here I am, feeling lonely and sad.

2. Agree.
I'm allowed to feel lonely and sad. That doesn't say anything bad about me. (Note the small voice in my head saying, I don't belieeeeeeeve youuuuu. What do I do with that?)

There are more steps but I'm stuck here for now, 'cause I don't believe that statement and don't know how to agree with myself there. Huh.

I think I will stop there.