2013-01-02

randomling: Chiana from Farscape, as played by Gigi Edgeley, smiling. (chiana)
2013-01-02 10:25 pm

Happy New Year!

Belated, a bit, but sincere.

I'm not really feeling up to doing a year review this year. However, I have started exercising, and logging my activities on Fitocracy for POINTS! (I've already levelled up once. It's quite cool.)

Exercise is good for me, apparently. Though it's also Very Tiring.

A couple of people on my reading list have announced a theme or word for the year and this kind of appeals to me, so I'm picking one too. The first word that came into my head was "recovery". I've spent a lot of the past 4 years very ill, with depression and other things, and I'm currently dealing with a lot of fatigue and pain. This year is going to be about recovering - not in a fast-paced "must be better so I can get job earn living be worthwhile person" way, which is what I've been doing, repeatedly and without success, for the the past 4-odd years. That's a pattern of "get superficially better, force myself to do things really fast in an unsustainable way, manage for a few months, fall over again". I don't want to repeat that pattern.

So this year's going to be about recovering in a careful, sustainable, not-pushing-myself way.

Perhaps I will find a way to get actually better, and to build a life that I can live on a long-term basis. Without falling down because of stress and illness and too-much-ness.

It's a hope, anyway.